Tuesday, December 2, 2008

6 years....


I put my Christmas tree up today. The same thing I was doing 6 years ago today. I find it so hard to believe it has already been 6 years. 6 years since my little girl went to be with her heavenly father. The last day I got to hold her little hand and listen to her sweet little sounds. I miss her so much. I miss the smell of her skin and curls in her hair. The way she would point her little finger to touch mine. I miss the constant sound of Blues Clues playing. I miss the red stain on my shirt from her Hawaiian punch she loved so much. I miss the way she would get so excited to see Sage and Jeff. Or when Billie would come over and talk like Blue to her and that sweet smile she would get on her sweet little face. The way she would let my mom know if she was taking Sage, she was taking her. They way she would reach for my dad glasses with that one little finger. The bouncy chair of hers. I miss watching her sleep. I miss so much about that little girl. My heart longs so much for my second daughter. Not a day goes by that I don't think of her. I always thought with time things would get easier, but they really haven't. I miss her as much today as the day I kissed her good bye. I know she is with Jesus, and she is well. And one day I will be with them. My heart is at peace. Peace that only he can give me! But I still miss my little girl!!

6 comments:

Sam said...

tara, that was a beautiful post. i think of her often, also. when you meet on that glorious day, she'll be able to tell you the memories she has...how you all loved her so much. i love you, girl.

Mandy said...

I think of Saria often. I love the memory of Chad holding her and talking to her (she was one of the first babies Chad ever held!) he wasn't that great at it and she just smiled away at him. Your strengh amazes me, and you have touched so many lives through your Amazing Faith! You have always been such a great friend to me and I love you so much!

The Garvie Family said...

What a beautiful tribute to such a beautiful little girl!! I remember the cute little curls on her head and that contagious smile. You have no idea how I admire your strength. I love you!!!

Leslie said...

What a beautiful post.

I hope you and your family have a very merry holiday season.

I am sure you are glad that finals are here. I know I am.

Very much looking forward to that month off before it all starts over again.

Keep the posts coming!

Becky said...

I love you, Tara, and thank God so much that he brought you and your family into out lives. Your faith is so strong, it is amazing. I'm hoping you find comfort in the fact that you will get to spend eternity with Saria and that is a loooong time - love you!

Kenzie said...

Tara-

I just wanted to tell you THANK YOU so much for the amazing gifts that you gave us on Sunday. Oh my goodness... you guys are so generous and sweet! And the ornament- INCREDIBLE. Yep, I cried and no I don't have one... in fact I have never even see that before. It is beautiful! THANK YOU so much!!

I have a favor to ask of you. Would you email me your address? I thought that I had it but can't seem to find it anywhere. kenzie.stanfield@yahoo.com

Thank you! Happy New Year and sweet memories of Saria.